### ðð, ð€ððððð, ðð ððð¥ð¥ððð€, & ð€ð¥ððð ð ð§ðð£ððð *****Yes you read that right***** ð ð *****Because I was raised in a strict home that was strict about everything including religion, I was never permitted to:***** â Date before I was smixteen â Go to parties or friend's houses unless a parent confirmed they'd be there... or we did. â Couldn't be out past 10 pm unless I got it ok, then curfew was midnight â Get more than 1 peircing or any tattoos â Wear clothing that was more revealing like showing cleavage, midriff, upper thighs, shoulders. Only exceptions were sports team attire like a swimsuit for training or competitions. â Drink or smoke â wear makeup until I turned smixteen â Have sex or masturbate or watch porn â Watch or play things depicting sex or v10l3nc3 â Do anything on Sundays or Mondays that wasn't family centered. â Get any grades less than a B unless I wanted to pay my parents --- ð So I was never really allowed normal freedoms others had. The weight of never disappointing my family was always heavy. I did masturbate in secret... like beyond what a normal individual would. But the level of shame and guilt associated were and are still things I'm trying to get over. ð Because of the strictness and not wanting to disappoint, I stuck to swimming and getting straight A's. I never even went to a sk00l dance (aside from 1 in middle sk00l because I was in social dance and we had to perform a number... after which I left. So I don't count that). ð Boys only showed interest in my friends who were "pretty" while I was "sporty". ð I had my first kiss at 21 from my ex boyfriend... and the kissing was GOD AWFUL! ð ð So I just never experienced what others do, and never learned things like what I like about me or others, what I desire, etc. ð When I say I'm a virgin, I mean in ALL sense of the word. I've never done anything with another person. No blowies, no copping feels, no nothing. So... there's a little about that ð ð ð